Over the last year, there have been many significant changes in my life. The turning point occurred when I acknowledged, accepted, and announced to the world that I am transgendered. Before that, I was simply miserable. Since then, I have come to enjoy life more than I ever thought possible.
Shortly after my announcement, I began hormone replacement therapy (HRT). The hormones have been affecting my body in miraculous and wonderful ways. I no longer present an overly masculine body. I’m losing weight and fat redistribution is ongoing. A decidedly feminine shape is developing.
With almost eight months into HRT, I had a most disturbing thought. It is a thought that all women entertain every single year. I was watching television and the image of a woman with a beautiful body flashed onto the screen. She was wearing a sexy little bikini. I looked at this woman and tried to determine if her outfit was something I thought I might like to wear.
Now, it is normal for women to evaluate what other women wear and decide if the outfit in question is cute or not. If it’s cute, you try to figure out how to acquire said outfit. I do this all the time with regard to dresses, skirts, shirts, shoes, and jewelry that I see.
In the case of the swimsuit clad beauty gracing my television screen, I had that moment of horror and self-loathing that every woman experiences. Summer is just around the corner… swimsuit season is eminent… and there is some work to be done before I embarrass myself in a bikini.
I weigh about twenty pounds more than I want, but I still have time to work off that extra weight so that I can look my best before swimsuit season arrives. Thinking about this is normal for most women. The main issue I face is the fact that I have NEVER worn a bikini before. As a man, I always wore surfer shorts or something similar. As a woman, it’s a whole new game. I find myself in the position of having to go shopping for my FIRST bikini.
So, what do I do?
Transgendered women (for the most part) are afraid of exercise because they don’t want to bulk up like they did when testosterone ravaged their bodies. They have images of huge biceps and massive shoulders dancing in their heads. As a woman, this is definitely not the look you want.
I’ve spoken with others about the issue and the consensus is this… Estrogen is now the rule in my body and any exercise I do will result in the further development of my feminine shape. So, the answer to my dilemma is to simply get back into my old exercise routine and let my female hormones do their thing. By summer, I should be down to my fighting weight of 150 lbs with a killer feminine figure.
The effort I put into crafting the sexy new me will ensure that my girly frame will be ready for that cute little bikini I’ve got my eye on.
Onward to summer. Bring it on!!
